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( is she in the art room? hopefully she is, because komaeda's coming to visit her with a sticky note in hand, and a few slips of wishing paper. he doesn't enter, instead he raises his prosthetic to gently knock at the door to see if he can get her attention.

going about this normal? he must be up to something. )

[ She is home because it's Sunday but if it really needs to be a Sunday we can say she went to school for a slice of Lucifer's birthday tiramisu and can be found in the art room enjoying her cake and working on her painting and ignoring the knocking at the door, she's not a housemaid, open it yourself. ]

( help, i just realized i didn't even put a proper date, but you know what i want chiaki to have cake because this just means she's one of the demons... an imp.

but alright, he wastes no time with one more knock — )

Kudo-san?

( he closes the door behind him until he hears it click, and he takes a step forward close to her. is this a bad time that he's bothering her when she's eating? let's pray. )

Can I borrow about fifteen minutes of your time?

[ aflskjh I just accepted everybody is just here for Lucifer's birthday cake, I would also come to school on a weekend for birthday tiramisu. ]

Nope.

[ It can't even be said that he's bothering her, when she's just curled up by one of the windows with a half eaten cake on the plate on her lap, back against the windowpane as she licks her plastic fork clean in case she needs to stab with it. ]

Great! ( his voice raises, ecstatic as he makes his way over to her with a smile. he takes a desk, turning it in her direction so he can sit down in it, and view her appearance against the window. yeah, he's not listening to her at all. )

I knew you'd be of great assistance.

( he places the wish strip on the desks' surface to slide them in her direction. )

My handwriting is a pain to look at... I wanted to know if you'd write my wishes for me?

( he's already wrote one set of wishes, but they were very annoying and freakfully honest ones... but the next set he wants to have put up are... a little against his norm. )

[ She purses her lips like how would Komaeda know her handwriting is any better? Never mind her capslock wish ]

Don't you have friends?

[ to ask favors of but also in general. Favors from Chiaki require payment and she squints at him because does he have any? She has cake. Hard to beat cake. ]

...

( friends? does he have friends? look, he doesn't know if he can call them that because knowing his luck... something bad will happen. )

I have you as of now...

( his fingers drum along the table in thought because she's right, he should have asked someone who would deal with him. but... chiaki won't keep anything he does in her mind, he's like garbage ready to put out so she can push her clean trash bag izumi there instead. it's a win/win to him. )

I understand scum like me shouldn't have wishes... but there are people out there who I think are in need of them.

[ so if something bad happens to her, it's okay. Okay. He's right, though, the moment he's out of sight, he's out of mind and replaced with Izumi. ]

Sooooooo... Why should I care about you, or other people? This isn't how you ask for favors! Start off with what the other person cares about! What can you offer me!

( what happens to her that's bad is that she ends up with izumi or something, listen... komaeda's luck works in mysterious ways. )

You're very selfish, Kudo-san... I know you don't want me near your precious Sena-kun.

( yeah, he said it even though it's said in a ways like he's come to terms with it. )

I only need a few wishes written... what equivalent can I give you? ( want him to fake izumi's wishes for you queen??? he can do that. )

[ if only she knew...

There's no denying her selfishness as she tap her fork against her lips, though. What wish could she ask for, if Rika's already granting her wish board wish? ]

Hmmm... I'll write one wish for you for every one wish you grant of Sena's. BUT!!! You're not allowed to approach him or talk to him or interact with him in any way! Stay away from him!

( he's seen izumi's wishes because of how much he frequents the board himself for ultimates, and every wish was different from the last. some that can be granted, and other's needing the right circumstances, but his were... he missed someone. komaeda guesses he could do the one about his skin, but that would involve getting a knife to scrape away the flesh... it's clearer underneath, i'm sure. )

I can't grant any of his wishes.

( she has to know this, because she would have granted them herself if it was possible. )

...But I can stay away from him for an entire day on how many wishes you write for me. ( same thing, right? )

Can't take a hint, huh? But okay, fine. What do you need me to write?

[ it's the same thing... Not being around Komaeda grants you clearer skin, we can fulfill that one ]

( excuse me!??!?!?!?! he's just sucking the decay off the people around him so they live longer, you WANT him to be around izumi? wtf

he pulls out his list, looking over everything he's written so far, and it looks good enough to him. he slides it over to her accompanied with the slips of wish paper that he took. )

Write these, and also that I wish to hold Lily May more often.

( she's soft. )

Who's Lily May?

[ Sucks to be whoever that is, Chiaki thinks to herself as she looks down his list and frowns a little more the further she gets down the list. ]

What's up with the vagueposting...? Are these really your wishes? You want me to write them with your name and everything?

My wish... I could meet them if it comes true. ( this is the second time her presence has been rejected by a student here, and he should get to the bottom of that now that he thinks about it. ) Or should I ask for one of the cats, which do you think is easiest?

( he stares at the list in her hand while faking like he's thinking about what he wants done. he already knows the answer, so after a few seconds he'll shake his head. he'll add to her idea, though: )

Nope, they're just for variety! If these are put up, someone in the school will think that someone cares for them, and that'll bring them hope in a way... ah, to see what wavering spirits solidify with confidence... that too is a hope.

( it's the truth, but it's also a lie. )

So it's bait. That's such a roundabout way of doing it, Komaeda. That's so troublesome.

[ Maybe it'll work, but damn if Chiaki would never think to do this herself, she would've just gone to those people in question and told them what's what. ]

And this one about being loved?

[ What's that got to do with hope ]

Come now, Kudo-san... I'll do anything to see hope flourish in this school!

( there's something about each and every wish, and luckily for him, he's satisfied that he doesn't have to explain more than he has to. well, that's until she points at a specific one, and it doesn't surprise him none considering the type of romantic chiaki is.

he doesn't mind it, so he decides to explain despite this request being a wish he wanted such a long time ago. )

Isn't that sort of feeling nice... ( he speaks softly, mostly to himself, but he does well in directing the question to her. ) To be loved by someone?

Edited (you ever type words but your animal comes to mess with you so you forget to delete said word and) 2021-06-10 05:52 (UTC)

Then you should've run for student council.

[ She takes the slips of paper and starts copying down the wishes, though, leaving the name and class blank it feels weird? it feels weird attributing these wishes to Komaeda. It feels even weirder imagining herself as the author, with each pen stroke of "I want to be loved" ]

Is it? I dunno. I think loving someone's a much nicer feeling— do you have any idea what either of those feel like?

I'm way too worthless for student council... ah, don't you think Ishimaru-kun will do a better job?

( really? chiaki saying something nice? what alien replaced her, or is she too caught up in her love high... to be honest, maybe that's not even a compliment. either way, komaeda did cast in his vote, and it makes him wonder if chiaki would have chosen him had he actually been in the running. it's a short-lived thought as he watches her write every word, and her handwriting is sooo much better than the chicken block scratch or whatever the fuck komaeda had going on. )

Is it?

( he mimics her. he can't agree fully to her curiosity, because once upon a time, komaeda has loved — and that love turned into an unhealthy obsession. his own type of... obsessiveness. in a way, they aren't too different, if only komaeda could realize that. even now, he tries to think of something recent, but it's hard to pinpoint, he guesses saying he loves every ultimate wouldn't satisfy her. )

I love hope with all my heart... ( as if that's a proper answer. ) But to be loved in return... I'm unfamiliar... I really do have the worst luck! ( he isn't disheartened, but he focuses on her. ) You must've experienced both, unlike me.

[ She meant more that Komaeda should've run and gotten torn apart by zombies but when she thinks about it, Ishimaru would do a good job in the student council. That's not something to be happy about, though. ]

Yeah. And that's not bad luck you have, that's you being delusional. Love is for another person! The entire person! A whole person! You can't just love an aspect— and an aspect can't love you back!

...I love every Ultimate here, if that's what you mean. It's the purest form of love that I have, and I'd give anything to see them all succeed.

( and if that love of his means that he has to die for them, then so be it. it's because they all represent hope, and even chiaki's hope is shimmering as ever so he's excited to see how she fares with everyone else. )

Loving hope... that's all I've had, and all I ever will.

( he pauses, looking at the wish slip she writes on. )

Loving someone else... to see myself loved... no on wants that with me. I've accepted it, Kudo-san... I am jealous you are able to... have feelings like this in general.

Okay, see, that sounds like a love a parent has for their child.

[ Giving everything they have for the sake of success? That's parenthood.

She frowns a little at the wish slip, the one about love, and adds Komaeda's name to the end of it. ]

Not everybody love loves, though, and that's fine too. Do you just want the experience, or what? I can give that to you, 'cause it feels like dying.

[ That's what being in love feels like... dying... ]

( love a parent gives their child? he raises his brow in confusion, a little taken aback by her words. he doesn't think that's the case, but there's been many times he became irritable when they waffled and waited for the answers to their problems. he's never been the type to hold their hand the entire duration of their predicament, but... isn't that love something you'd give to anyone?

he's been watching her this entire time, so to see his name labeled on it causes him to chuckle. is that what he gets for lacking empathy for others? chiaki, someone honest with her feelings, and who appears to have a knack for understanding them. komaeda gets it to a degree, it's to escalate his hope! )

What about my life that I have no recollection of... did I achieve love in them? If so, there's really no need to help me here, I'm happy the way I am.

( she did say she knew izumi since middle school. he plays along with it too. )

My past should have that sort of thing to himself, and... ( he taps the wish slip since his attention is still on it. ) is that your wish, Kudo-san?

( he takes a wish slip, starting to write her name on top as he waits for her response. ) Do you want the pain to stop?

I dunno. It's not like I paid any attention to you. Ask somebody who would know.

[ Weirdo. As if he's talking about two different people, the self he remembers and the self he doesn't, and with his dementia that must means he's continually splintering and inconsequentially leaving old selves behind— there's something about that that she dislikes, but she doesn't want to think too hard about Komaeda to bother with it. ]

Geez... Your handwriting really sucks. Is it 'cause your writing hand got chopped off?

[ She takes that slip of paper and crumples it up into a ball and rewrites her own name and slides it back over to Komaeda. ]

But nah, I'm not in any pain. I'm doing what I want, and I'm happy.

Ah, I thought we had history so you'd know something about it.

( memories that he doesn't know, pieces of him that doesn't make sense, and he doesn't understand any of it. he knows they aren't his memories, the mere thought of them are fabricated, and maybe his time in the simulation built him to think like this. that's an excuse, but his dementia makes it even worse, so what does he know? )

Oh! I didn't need to write anything at the time. ( you know, he was giving hope by making despair, and stuff like that. he opens and closes his prosthetic as she takes the wish slip so that the soft whirring sound is heard, hm, actually it isn't because of his hand — he's always written like that. )

I was right, your handwriting is pretty nice, thank you. ( with it back in his possession, he stares at the area where the wish would go, and then his eyes lift to stare at chiaki. ) "It feels like dying," is what you said... but it's nice.

( having someone or something to die for... it makes him smile. )

6 — chiaki kudo

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