adsum | npc contact.1

[ He looks over at Komaeda like ?? ??? bc meeting up after class isn't inviting him to class— not like this, sitting together and unable to pay attention to the lecture and having to rely on Komaeda's notes later. ]

Better people know better than to be with me
Crime
3. Does a past you don't remember matter?

( it's inviting him, accept him as a third-year, rokkun! which, he'll just come anyway especially if the teacher doesn't notice... he's a good boy, writing down their notes so they can pass their next exams.

when he looks back over at what's written, he thinks about the struggle that hinata himself endures, not knowing anything, and how komaeda finds this karma that the same is happening to him. something like this would happen to him, and he guesses that's what he gets for being "lucky". forget the past and the future will hold something better for him, he doesn't know what it is just yet, but he's holding out — maybe it's rokkun's hope, maybe that's what he gave the past up for. )

i'm not going to remember anything one day
you of all people know this, but if it was avoidable, i'd like to know.
4. what memories do you want me to remember

[ Rokkun accepts so damn much but that doesn't change the school roster. ]

Every dies and everybody forgets. But I'm talking about right now
I want you to remember our original promise. It'd be meaningless if I told you
5. What memories do you want to remember?

( give komaeda a few weeks, he's going to have them rosters edited, he's going to be a third-year, and walk rokkun to the door. second-year if he tries hard enough, then he's closer to the third-year floor. )

before you said you'd break it if you died before me.
it makes me wonder if our original promise was to die together
6. how we met

( morbid, sure, but komaeda doesn't seem like he's joking either. )

[ ... ]

You found me
7. Why does it matter?

you can learn a lot about a person through how you meet them
and other's say it's special, i wondered if we were the same, special
8. if i told you about the memories i do remember, would you call them fake?

( wait, let him flip a page in their book so they look like they're paying attention. )

[ He glances up at the board and the teacher is talking about camera lenses and oh boy he's going to have to self study tonight. Komaeda being in his class is detrimental to graduation, actually. ]

No
9. What memories do you remember?

( don't blame his focus on komaeda, to be honest, get him a phone so he can help rokkun study?

what memories do he remember? none that involve rokkun, only things people find depressing, things that komaeda is detached from — no family, no friends, just himself and terrible circumstances that brought about good ones. )

i had a dog that i'd see every day as i came home
i almost got to see him again once

( he's sure rokkun might understand from how he phrased his words. the dog he speaks about is long gone, the chance to see him again was when owari choked him where he laid. unlucky and lucky occurrences. )

10. what memories do you remember?

[ how does a phone help ]

A younger brother and sister
Living by the coast
The home that I grew up in
You
11. Why not me?

( so they can text through the night, staying up discussing notes.

if this is memories they're on, this might take a bit. )

my father and mother are dead
my dog is dead
i have no relatives
i only have me
and money
hope
that's pretty lucky
i want you

( the base of his childhood that basically left him with no one, but in a way, rokkun does deserve a fte since he gifted komaeda once... )

[ "I have no family but I have money and hope! Lucky!" stares at the sky

He doesn't even follow up with a question... Well, Rokkun can provide an answer all the same ]

Yes
13. Should I start over?

[ me googling fte "An FTE is the hours worked by one employee on a full-time basis. The concept is used to convert the hours worked by several part-time employees into the hours worked by full-time employees." and going ??? and then i went oh ]

( promise you he doesn't even want the money, he only wants hope... but he's lucky!

STOPP NOT ME LAUGHING PLEASEEE maybe that's what his special free time event should be turned into. )

yeah
go back to 1
i don't want to stop talking to you

( he knows what rokkun meant, but he's also trying to be cute?? is this how you be cute??? komaeda's trying. )

for your question
i want to remember what it is that i missed, starting over is one, but my memory...
14. am i really that unlucky that i can't understand what we shared in the past?

( go back to 1! )

[ adsflkhj bonding over accounting... cursed ]

No
Maybe it's better this way. But starting over feels like giving up, when my hope is that you'll remember

[ It's a lost cause, though, with Komaeda's dementia. But maybe that's why he's so persistent, when he was resistant to Rika's initial advances, because being with Komaeda is impossible and his affections won't be returned. In a way, there's safety in impossibility. ]

1. If you could remember everything, would you really want to?

i'd never advise giving up on your hope, it just wouldn't be me.
you'll have to live with me and my faults

( to be punished for his illness, he didn't think rokkun was that sort of person — perhaps this was a mistake at the start. komaeda's visibly sick, the other would have known if they've been together since childhood, though komaeda's diagnosis came around in his teen years, but still... who knows, maybe it's a different story than what rokkun knows. )

i can't deny what i don't know. so yes
2. did we apply to this school together?

[ How dare Komaeda have dementia ]

No
I enrolled first, and met you after
3. Would you have applied, knowing what you do now?

( why does he get to forget his memories while everyone else keeps them... :/ )

?

( what he does now... you mean... not solve mysteries? )

4. in full detail... what do i do now?

[ ...

That's a good question ]

?
5. What do you do now?

i help people's hope, isn't that obvious?
6. what do you do now?

( let him flip a page in their handy, dandy schoolbook. )

[ He stares at the blank page for a moment, then looks up at the board and tries to memorize an equation before looking back down.

What does he do? Nothing as grand as """helping hope""" ]

I am collecting
7. Are you happy?

that's subjective. try it yourself and form your own opinion.
8. tell me about your family so you can catch my memory up to speed, what are they like?

( does that sound familiar? hope it does, rokkun said it to him once. )

[ Did he? Please, my memory is worse than Komaeda's, don't assume I remember anything I said at any given point in time ]

Normal as can be. Parent, grandparents, a younger brother and younger sister in the same house.
9. What was your dog like?

( when i try to give them parallels and you don't remember him saying what he says, i'm tearing up. )

you have a lively home, i guess that's nice.
you have to tell me before or after he was flattened, i can tell you about both
10. does your family know who i am?

[ asdflkjh take pity on me, Rokkun got it even if I didn't, maybe ]

No
11. Tell me about both?

ashamed of me... i see...
he was big... i was young at the time maybe five, but he was big and i think he loved me the most. as for when he was hit by the car.. there was a lot of blood that day

( thinking about it, that still kind of stings... he loved his dog a lot, and even when he was near death, that was the first thing he thought of. it's a shame he can't even think of people he'd want to see if he dies... )

12. do you regret meeting me

[ "What was your dog like?" "Big. Bloody." This isn't telling him much of anything, please,,,

Anyways, there's a growing frown on his face, and he'd made sure to keep his head down and eyes on the paper as he waits for the question, but he can't help but steal a glance at Komaeda before looking back down to write. ]

I'm not
I don't
13. Do you regret meeting me?

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