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( they can sit on the grass so that when they do, the birds will fly in on the other side and look back at them, like hatoful boyfriend.

he waits for akira to do the same before saying anything else, and komaeda's hands remain in his pocket during most of this conversation. )

There's a reason why it's only you I can speak to, because it involves Nanami-san as well.

[ Akira remains standing until Komaeda sits, looks like he doesn't really want to sit on the grass and dirt but the alternative is too awkward so he sits too, in front of Komaeda with ample space between them. ]

...If you're asking me to do for Nanami-san as you asked for Rokuro, I can't help you.

I'd never tell you to turn an Ultimate into one of those... ( you know, komaeda has been talking shit about akira's work for awhile now, he'll let up. ) ...What do you call them when they're like that, Fujioka-kun?

( he holds his smile for a moment, proud that he wouldn't ask for akira's assistance, it just wouldn't sit right with him after what he saw what was done to kirigiri. )

...Hold out your hand.

They're still people...

[ He looks down at his hand as if it would betray him and spontaneously hold out, but it hangs by his side. ]

Why?

[ Komaeda wouldn't be the first person who's dropped a dead bug in his hand when he's asked to hold it out, he's justified for being nervous about this. ]

The sort of life you live is filled with fear, every step you take forward... you're afraid. Living like that, isn't it tiring? When you could go with the flow, and be excited for what's around the corner...?

( not komaeda's word of advice, but he'll play on the other side of the field. what he pulls out his pocket, and holds out to the other is a familiar hairpin that komaeda found... in the elevator. hinata will not be needing this anymore, maybe akira needs a little emotional support, you never know. )

...

( it sits in the palm of his hand, as if he's waiting for akira to take it. )

[ Why... does he have that? Why would Nanami give that to him? She's not here anymore, so he can't ask, but Komaeda is right: it's fear that grips his heart and poisons his veins but it's the only way he can live, the only reason he's still here.

He's hesitant, but he does take the clip, in the end. ]

...not everybody is as strong as you, Komaeda-san. I'm scared of dying. I don't want to die.

( komaeda doesn't like anyone who makes his ultimates laugh, make them happy, disrupt them from what they do — yes, he was jealous seeing someone who lacks talent around his beloved ultimate. things are different now, and some things won't change, but as soon as the pin is in his grasp.

komaeda's hands slowly curl into a fist, and he sets it down in the seat of his lap. )

...

( wouldn't know if it should be called strong, where komaeda stays away from others knowing that he's burden, someone who will have everyone die around them. compared to akira who stays from others in hopes to avoid his death. )

I understand that you're weak, that you confided in an Ultimate that was stronger than you... what are you living for, Fujioka-kun, where is your hope?

[ God, Komaeda is like Rokkun but worse, they're both petty bitches around people who are around people they love. Speaking of him, though, that question is one that Akira can answer, one he lifts his gaze to answer and without hesitation. ]

My hope is Rokuro. I might not believe in his methods, but I believe in him. I promised to [ was coerced into ] help him however I can.

( the way you're placing rokkun's insanity beneath komaeda's, oh, i might cry. the quick reply however makes komaeda stare at akira, he already knew they worked together in some way. the question at the end of the day was who listened to who — guess that answers it. )

His hope...

( very sensitive subject, he wouldn't call rokkun his hope, but he does want to see it. he has praised what rokkun has, so he can see someone like akira latching onto it, despite having a hope that's... miniscule next to others. he's so afraid, unwilling, and yet here he is. )

Then you have to do everything you can for him... would he be the person you're having an affair with? ( where is the affair at! )

Wha— No! [ HUGE STEP BACK ] We're not involved in that way!

[ Stop it!!!! Don't think he's like Komaeda with his 57384903 Ultimates he only has eyes for, this is also what sets Komaeda and Rokkun apart. ]

( affair? where the affair at. AND STOPPPP!! subconscious komaeda probably wishes he could forget ultimates, because then his life would be so better, but luck and dementia doesn't allow him...! )

Are you an idiot?

( now don't get mad with komaeda, akira's the one who used the term!! )

I meant with the deceased, you called it a private affair... you are against his means, but you trust him. Everything you do is unorthodox.

[ Komaeda doesn't have to parrot back terms other people use, look where that got him with counselor-kun and Rokkun's stupid terminology ]

It's... ugh. [ If he keeps quiet, so will Rokkun, right? Regardless of what he thinks of Komaeda, that guy is cagey when it comes to everything else. ]

That's between him and me. I trust him... and you should too. Or at least believe in him.

[ even if Rokuro is insane ]

( stop, he knows that rokkun is so fucking insane, and doesn't know what he be talking about. LAST TIME HE USES ROKKUN SPEECH TO ANYONE!! )

If this is between you two...

( komaeda sounds tired at the thought, looking off to the side as he tries to figure out what placement he has in this relationship. )

Are you the only one behind the golden eyes, here...

( natsume's struggle was different, but... ) You can tell me what it symbolizes, if not your plan.

[ There's no relationship, it's largely Rokkun doing his own thing and Akira being anxious about it and Komaeda wanting to know what's going on except nobody talks to anybody. ]

I... don't know? It doesn't symbolize anything, it's just...

[ It is what it is, and he doesn't want to ascribe any higher meaning than that. Let it be insanity, it doesn't have to tie into anything larger. ]

( stop why don't they understand communication is key!! they're both hiding something is how komaeda has to look at this. )

"It's just..."? it happens to a few students here, gaining gold eyes... some are afraid to see them, should they be wary, Fujioka-kun?

( well, someone's looking insane, and it's not komaeda. )

[ look... actually, no, don't look at him, Akira isn't looking at him. ]

...no more wary than they would be towards anybody else. [ is his eventual, calculated response. Yellow eyed students are maybe scary, but so are the regular ones. The only difference is how they came into being. ]

( looks at him, komaeda's looking at him. )

Fujioka-kun, that is mean of you... to play a waiting game with them.

( you know, they don't even know what's going to happen, and now they have to bide their time and hope for the best. )

Does this have something to do with graduation? I'm a first year, so I really can't take part... so if you want to tell me about it.

( :) )

[ Komaeda has his own brand of bullying, but Akira finds himself relieved that at least he isn't as direct and forceful as Rokkun is. Compared to his, Komaeda's words tend to be more open, and offers an out that Akira will take. ]

I don't want to tell you about it. Sorry. [ as an addendum ] For being mean. [ as a clarification ]

( he'll hate komaeda's brand of bullying, don't worry. )

You were mean? I find you to be a scared loser, so you have nothing to apologize for.

( if anything, apologize for being around nanami, which brings him to his next question. )

Did you take her, too. Do you take everyone that goes missing if not murdered by this group...

[ he immediately hates it

not the name calling, not when there's truth in it, but what makes him most upset is the insinuation that he would purposely do any wrong towards Nanami, or anybody else. ]

No.

[ If that's how Komaeda thinks of him, it isn't worth the effort trying to convince him otherwise.

He gets up and leaves. ]

( what the fuck, not how komaeda has to get up to follow this man, stop being a big baby.

is what komaeda would say if he wasn't trying to match pace with akira. )

You were with someone that day.

( leo, even though komaeda met him once and can't even recall his name. information that he's kept tucked away because nanami was around this idiot, and komaeda didn't want to cause any problems for him. he didn't have to do it, he could have explained everything, caused an uproar, placed a target on akira's back.

this is komaeda giving chances. )

Don't be upset with my question — ( he can feel it! ) If anyone hears what we spoke about, at least there's an answer to it.

[ "Don't be upset" Akira feels like crying and this is having the opposite effect. Why is Komaeda following him... is there nowhere safe in this school... ]

I already gave you my answer.

( does he look like he's about to cry, can komaeda see? show the tears, show the tears!! )

I allowed you to hold a belonging of an Ultimate that you apparently value, so please don't disappoint me or the decision I made.

Edited (better) 2021-09-04 01:24 (UTC)

[ He does look like it but Komaeda can't see if Akira's facing away from him, go away, don't look ]

Nanami-san's things aren't a bargaining chip... Please don't make it one.

[ Let him just be sad and miss Nanami!!! don't make it so every time he sees the clip he feels obligated to Komaeda for giving it to him— although now that he's thought about it, that's all he's going to think. ]

Did I ever call it one? Don't ever say something so idiotic, an Ultimate should have it, and not a coward.

( but she hung around him, and she's probably all that he knows. he looks towards akira as he looks away, and god, maybe he shouldn't have gave it away. perhaps he should have kept it to himself, because nanami — the real one — is someone that shaped komaeda to the way he is now, and the nanami that was here before... the ai... shaped akira in some way, if it's chasing after her shadow...

then so be it. )

It was in my possession, but... I understand my place, and know it's not meant to be with me. That's a piece of hope, even though Rokkun is your hope, that clip shines rather bright.

( ...luckily komaeda doesn't see ultimates as people, so he's able to say things like this. )

Remember that.

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