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[ There's probably empty cans and stuff that used to hold art supplies or water for paints, but no way is she going to leave her reds out here in the open where anybody could just snatch some. ]

We're not friends; we just use each other.

[ It's a business relationship, with a little bit of exertion and ransom sprinkled in here and there. ]

[ Get something fatty that'll break down soft and tender to complement their maggot rice. ]

There's a different between hope and faith, Nagito.

[ Like... he can hope Komaeda will pull through and make something edible despite not being the most practiced cook, but does he have faith? not at all, but maybe he'll be surprised. ]

Do you have either in me?

You all have a bond together, and that's what matters! To see you all help one another like this...

( he starts, looking at the female with a smile, little does she know to him this is very important — the way they work together between one another. it's a sort of relationship that the transfer students haven't unlocked, and komaeda can't reject the idea of hope right there in front of him. )

Are you unable to see them now, or do you want me to rip myself open? ( he says it without a second thought, even though izumi was scared to — komaeda is a different breed, and has been through more than enough to do it. )

You're asking someone worthless like me...

( he pulls out one of the trays of meat, looking for the best portion that's laying, and once he finds which one stands out to him... )

Nothing I say really matters, and why would it? I'm only here to help the path that everyone walks. ( he pauses though, looking at him, and he's happy about this, so don't worry about what's going on in his mind. he's curious though, and maybe there's something he can do to help rokkun's concerns. it'll build up his strength on the matter so he doesn't have to ask questions like that, because it makes komaeda feel weird since he doesn't understand why he asks. )

...What did I have in you before?

Huh? No!

[ To which question? the latter one, because she hops over to him and waves her hands in his face as if to banish the thought. ]

Don't do that here! You'll get blood all over everybody's art and you can't just wash it off!

[ If you're going to bleed, do that somewhere else, go away ]

[ It's insane which makes it interesting. Komaeda is a train wreck. ]

You'd be surprised how much people know but don't realize, or perhaps subconsciously refuse to acknowledge.

[ Maya, constantly: open your damn eyeeeeeeess

Anyways, he's rejected her request and so she has no further reason to entertain him, heading for the door so she can go home and get out of here, make one of the teachers lock up before the school empties out. ]

If you want to bring up that death, ask them yourself.

( when she says that, even komaeda's a little... off-put, because isn't he the one who subconsciously ignores what he really wants — happiness, friends, a life without talent and hope. though, he'll never say something like that aloud because he knows that it isn't true, and it's even embarrassing to think about. for others though, that does make him curious. )

Arisu-san, you make me out to be a lot of trouble, and you'd really let me go on stage to speak with our peers?

( maybe he'll take it, maybe... besides, he looks like he's willing to go along with it. )

...What about you? I want to hear it from you, yourself.

( besides, only maya can tell him whether she's happy with what happened. )

Cookies? Ah, yes I suppose that such delicious treats would be helpful for the campaign...

[But he realizes he's trailing off and then refocuses himself.]

Ah, but I understand that! I did not mean to ask for your help. It would not be fair if I did not succeed under my own power, after all! Still, don't you think we should prepare for the possibility of sharing spots at the student council? We can... discuss school matters on a preliminary basis and see if we can build up a strong rapport!

[And see what he can learn in the process.]

Now, now... doesn't everyone want a little, I'm sure it'll make your paints niiiiice and unique.

( he's raising his hands to, grabbing her wrists so he can pull them down out his face. )

Did you want to do the honors? We can go together!

[ ? Rokkun tilts his head, as if letting his brain slosh around in his skull will wake up the sleeping brain cells needed to understand what Komaeda is asking. Why be around Komaeda when it's a detriment to every aspect of his life? ... ]

I guess... it's because of our time together. You weren't always who you are, and I wasn't always who I am, but you've always been there. Not necessarily there for me, but... there.

I guess you can say it's because I'm fond of you.

I'm not scared of you.

[ She gives him another punch for good measure, driving her knuckles into his ribs so she doesn't have to put her full strength into it but Komaeda will still feel it. ]

And don't do stuff like this just 'cause it's fun for you! Think of me a little too! It's not cathartic if it's all the time— then it just becomes suuuuuuuper annoying!

[ God this boy is insane. ]

I think you have the wrong eye open.

[ She's just going to... turn around in the middle of the stairwell and ditch him. ]

[ Is he being treated... He shuffles closer to the vending machine and looks things over, points out a box of strawberry milk and also those corn chips that are shaped like cones and you have to cap your fingers with them before you eat them.

There is no cat food to be found in the vending machine, but your Lily May fact of the day is that I don't actually remember what brand of cat food I get her bc I grab whatever's on sale when I'm at the store, but she does like this brand that's like... oblong kibble pieces in green and tan and brown and she'll scarf it down even though I pour out her food in four separate locations around my room so she's forced to run around and find it all so she doesn't eat too fast. The bag I have now is plain round brown and she'll eat some and then walk away and graze throughout the day until it's gone by the next meal time but she clearly isn't as enamored by it. tl;dr Lily May likes colors. ]

[ He's asking someone worthless like him because he wants to know, because it doesn't matter, because he's never asked before. Is it something that can be answered, as a general statement and not one of the moment? He doesn't know. Maybe he's just curious about how Komaeda will answer, although with the way he deflects with a question, maybe he already did. ]

The same as what you have now. The way you regard me really hasn't changed all that much.

Like an internship, or probation? No.

[ Sounds to her like he's jumping the gun there, already assuming he'll be the one chosen and if he isn't, it would be a waste of her time and energy. ]

Talking about school matters isn't a hobby or anything. [ She doesn't even like it. Who likes this stuff? Ishimaru excluded. ] That's not why I joined the student council, nor why I ran for presidency. Why are you?

[ She nods, because yes she would let him speak. Insane. ]

My thoughts on Okane's death? I'll tell you after you exit this room.

[ People overhearing in the halls is ...bad... but even more frustrating would be having to fight Komaeda to get out of the room so she can put this place behind her. It's almost impossible to bodily move a person when they don't want to move; she knows that by experience aka she has a brother who doesn't want to get out of bed most mornings ]

[ Everybody getting a little blood on their art is the opposite of unique and he knows that!! She puffs up her cheeks and twists her wrists out of his grip, going ahead and stomping on his foot if he can't take the hint to let go. ]

They're the ones that do it, not me. I wouldn't know how to make it stop.

[He has a lot of faith and hope in his chances! And, well, he wanted to see if he could use that as a way to get started with student council-related matters early.]

You want to know my reasoning? Very well, I will gladly outline it! [Somehow, he manages to stand even more upright as he goes on.]

As a reputable head of a public morals committee in a past school, I feel that my talents would be put to good use on the student council! I happen to value order, and I wish to do my part to help keep things orderly and under control in these halls. I also feel that it is important for one of us transfer students to have a place on the student council, so that we may have a voice in school affairs and address concerns of the entire student body! It is as simple as that.

( slushy head.

not necessarily there for him is an odd way to describe it, if komaeda remembers correctly, apparently he was kinder in the memories he's shared with some people. he doesn't think so, but he's not even sure if he can compare those memories with rokkun, it's just all too confusing for him. )

...Rokkun, remember when I didn't know what to promise. ( awhile back on his birthday, komaeda never really thought of something proper, and maybe... ) Maybe it's this... to not say these things... because...

( good and bad luck works hard on komaeda, if he accepts this as a stroke of good luck, something bad will happen. if he continues to pursue bad luck, then maybe at the end he'll have something nice. even if it makes his stomach flip in excitement, there's this genuine concern mixed with it. if he accepts it... something will happen to rokkun. if he accepts it... komaeda knows he loses what's around him in return, and if that's the case...

hope is about friendships, and bonds with other, but even trash like him knows he isn't worthy to obtain that. even this companionship or whatever they make of it, it's best if he doesn't have this either because... it's what he's used to, he'll lose him, and what's the point of thinking he has this when it'll easily leave from his grasp. )

Ah, I'm sorry for bothering you, Rokkun, please don't be fond of a mistake like me. You're better than that.

[ It feels like a rehash of all the student council applications she's read and will have to read throughout the month from prospective members, with past experience in leading school clubs and the sense of duty to the school and whatever, but the transfer students having a voice? That makes her scoff under her breath. ]

Just how long has it been since you transferred here, Ishimaru? You're better off integrating with everybody else instead of continuing to set yourselves apart like that.

[ Never mind that the default form of address from other students tends to be "transfer student," but at least that tends to fall away when you get to know the person. ]

[ He's going to lose Rokkun anyways, with his goal being to either graduate by the end of the year or die trying, so that's all the time they're going to have left together no matter what. Or maybe even less, if Komaeda's dementia eats away at his brain and he forgets... Rokkun would be the one to lose him, then, and the thought makes him breathe out and step closer to Komaeda, reaching out to cup his cheek in his hand. ]

Even great men have their vices. Am I not allowed one? Besides, it's hard not to be fond when you're you.

[He likes to think that his spirit sets him apart from the others!

Ishimaru frowns as he hears her response.]

It has been about two months. But that is easier said than done, when it feels like our situation is very different than other students! For example... many of us have unusual living situations! [He's not sure if he should be speaking in code or not with her, but there he is, trying to allude to them not being able to walk out of the school.] And it seems that more students continue to be transferred in, in need of help and guidance.

[ A lot of them do have that scruffy homeless vibe to them, but that would be rude to say and so she just keeps it to herself, scrutinizing him, impassive throughout his explanation. ]

You can help and guide others without the mantle of being a student council member, you know? As for your ...living situation... I may be able to do something about that. But you have nothing you can offer me, and I have nothing that I need from you, so I will not.

[ Maybe that'll change in the future. But as of now, she doesn't do charity. ]

I am well aware of my ability to help out as a normal student. I have been trying to live to such a role throughout my short time here! But I still feel that being part of the student council will bring more opportunities to make a difference.

[Still, he pauses as he lets the rest of her words sink in.]

Wait. You do have a way to help? ...Ah... are you sure that it needs to be an exchange? What if it is just for the sake of doing something good for others?

( his reflection really looks scary. kinda like... he maybe ate someone... like a vampire, with how the lower half of his face is covered in, now pretty dry, blood. she's not sure why he still decided it's a good idea to put his chin right on top of her head even like that, but — she just flusters, a little, because little affections are Not her forte and he's still got his arms wrapped around her???

scandalous... rokkun has no shame... dummy... )

Senpai! ( she scolds him, half-hearted, a little too distracted to pay proper attention; when he leans them over, she finally looks at the mirror, and how it seems to be following his actions precisely, for once.

... of course when he's looking, it's working, just to make her look extra crazy. she doesn't need any help with that, thank you. )

Ugh... it works now, but I know what I saw! It was definitely a little behind!!

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sniffles... rokkun... cute