[ No??? No nononono wait no, he holds his hands out but to refuse the laptop, not to take it, he can't just take it? he has to prepare his heart first, which is struggling not to stop completely at the prospect of having to talk to somebody who probably definitely hates his guts. ]

No— no, no, it's not- it's not something you can just grow like a clipping off a plant. It's not... How can I...?

[ How can he talk to a person who isn't all there, let alone connect with them? It's like trying to speak with Komaeda, or Rokkun. ]

...I want to face her when I have something more to offer besides apologies...