[Damn it all - he didn't realize he let his sheer indifference in the face of death slip out as he clears his throat, shuffling a little in his seat at the question.]

W-Well, I...Ah, well, I am an older man, you see. Death is more of an inevitability, instead of a horrible outcome.

[He shrugs, as if to say 'it is what it is.']

Of course, it is not a thing I relish in thinking about. But I am not a teenager, believing themselves to be immortal.

[Once he's answered that, he can actually let himself think about the first part of it - and the implications thereof.]

So...I have been - violent, in the past? And that is why I am here?