( this world is unfair in its attempt to make komaeda care, because he doesn't mean to care either, that's why he doesn't have second thoughts when doing what he does. dying for hope, living for hope, working as hard as he can for a hopeful outcome — it's all too familiar to him, losing people, gaining people only to lose them again, but the senses... seems better than the person. he keeps his hand on the youth's back, leaving them in his embrace as he doesn't know when he should let go. )
I am there for your hope, but that's what's so great about it. The things people are willing to do in order to see the hope of others prosper... what if my hope is connected to those totems.
( what if it is... what could he learn from using it, how much is he giving up when he does it. it's not like his life is long anyway... cancer gave him a year and a half — around 17, but he's 23 now... and who knows, he doesn't think about it, doesn't know when his health will crash down on it's own... he's sure his luck is toying with him now. honestly, this isn't anything he thinks about given the state of his body. )
It's going to be okay, I'm... lucky... it won't do much to me. I'll be your guinea pig.
( and he smooths his hand up their back in his attempt to calm them down, it's hard to deal with though, hearing things like that... it's like he shouldn't even answer to it. that npc-kun can't mean him when there's others — amami, helena, whoever they like — that could take up his space. even with that said, he holds onto the hug, not realizing that he's doing so. )
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I am there for your hope, but that's what's so great about it. The things people are willing to do in order to see the hope of others prosper... what if my hope is connected to those totems.
( what if it is... what could he learn from using it, how much is he giving up when he does it. it's not like his life is long anyway... cancer gave him a year and a half — around 17, but he's 23 now... and who knows, he doesn't think about it, doesn't know when his health will crash down on it's own... he's sure his luck is toying with him now. honestly, this isn't anything he thinks about given the state of his body. )
It's going to be okay, I'm... lucky... it won't do much to me. I'll be your guinea pig.
( and he smooths his hand up their back in his attempt to calm them down, it's hard to deal with though, hearing things like that... it's like he shouldn't even answer to it. that npc-kun can't mean him when there's others — amami, helena, whoever they like — that could take up his space. even with that said, he holds onto the hug, not realizing that he's doing so. )