[ That's a good question. One he tries not to think about either as he approaches with the hose, sliding his thumb over the opening so that the water sprays out in a thin fan towards instead of a slow stream. He sort of waves it up and down like he's watering Komaeda. ]

...I wanted to hold onto you no matter what. I thought I could hold onto both— to survival, and to you. The blame doesn't lie with you. You can't have it.