( Arata-sensei -10 respect points, what the fuck, the desk chips. )
It's a complicated isSUE. ( As most things are. ) On one HAND, most of them didn't try to understand what had happeNED, or they tossed aside the reasoning for it as merely an exCUSE. You would think after months HERE, with the strangest people and imps in their MIDST, they would be able to believe in something that seems a little strange to THEM.
( Natsume rests back in his beanbag, watching the counselor. )
On the other HAND, I'm not going to dismiss their feeLINGS. They're allowed to be as hurt as they WANT, for as long as they WANT... I'm certainly in no position to ask anything else of THEM. Not when I'd feel the same exact WAY. ( Not when he... has. And not that he's over any of that either, mind, so. ) But — yes, it's unFAIR. It's upsetTING.
I made friends with some of these peoPLE, or I thought that I DID. That they wouldn't even spare me anyTHING... ( That they'd let the implication of "you should have gotten stabbed first, and either died or had it be a death in active retaliation" runneth over...
...Natsume frowns, then shakes his head. ) It doesn't matTER. What's done is DONE. I've been properly scolDED, the number of friends I have now has gone back to the reasonable number of "I can count them on one HAND," and whatever happens will hapPEN. It's on them to forgive me or not; all I can do is do betTER.
( Because even if he makes amends or tries to, or even if he changes, that doesn't mean they have to accept it or forgive him or anything like that. And "doing better" is "trusting people," like Subaru more accurately told him to. To tell someone about something happening, rather than immediately going off and acting on his own — overthinking, overacting, overachieving. His three favorite over-s. )
How long have you been a counselor at this SCHOOL? ( ... ) I like trading informaTION, and I consider my answer to have been a good trade for your credenTIALS.
( that isn't how this works and these two things aren't equal anyway but whatever. )
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It's a complicated isSUE. ( As most things are. ) On one HAND, most of them didn't try to understand what had happeNED, or they tossed aside the reasoning for it as merely an exCUSE. You would think after months HERE, with the strangest people and imps in their MIDST, they would be able to believe in something that seems a little strange to THEM.
( Natsume rests back in his beanbag, watching the counselor. )
On the other HAND, I'm not going to dismiss their feeLINGS. They're allowed to be as hurt as they WANT, for as long as they WANT... I'm certainly in no position to ask anything else of THEM. Not when I'd feel the same exact WAY. ( Not when he... has. And not that he's over any of that either, mind, so. ) But — yes, it's unFAIR. It's upsetTING.
I made friends with some of these peoPLE, or I thought that I DID. That they wouldn't even spare me anyTHING... ( That they'd let the implication of "you should have gotten stabbed first, and either died or had it be a death in active retaliation" runneth over...
...Natsume frowns, then shakes his head. ) It doesn't matTER. What's done is DONE. I've been properly scolDED, the number of friends I have now has gone back to the reasonable number of "I can count them on one HAND," and whatever happens will hapPEN. It's on them to forgive me or not; all I can do is do betTER.
( Because even if he makes amends or tries to, or even if he changes, that doesn't mean they have to accept it or forgive him or anything like that. And "doing better" is "trusting people," like Subaru more accurately told him to. To tell someone about something happening, rather than immediately going off and acting on his own — overthinking, overacting, overachieving. His three favorite over-s. )
How long have you been a counselor at this SCHOOL? ( ... ) I like trading informaTION, and I consider my answer to have been a good trade for your credenTIALS.
( that isn't how this works and these two things aren't equal anyway but whatever. )