( so i'm guessing this is the same day after amami — bless his soul — spoke with rokkun and he "cooled down"? hope he has blood on his hands...
anyway, komaeda's sitting in the library in the back both out of sight and out of mind, in a place where he can hardly cause any havoc. it's unlike him, but after everything he's seen so far, and it being enough to blame himself — if he didn't exist, or if his luck didn't act that way, then things would be fine. the amount of bad luck he's accumulated should give him something good, but he can't even look forward to what that is, because someone will just get hurt soon after. he finds that if he just gives up, accept his place in the world like he should have... maybe certain people wouldn't have gotten hurt.
around him is various books: mystery, geography, and some others from him to choose from, and he's better than he once was. rather than just letting a book sit there and read him, he's managed to lean forward, grab one, and open it to a page to read the first paragraph before allowing his mind to wander. it's like this everyday now, his own attempt to ease his mind, block out what's happened before, and just stay out of the way. everything that happens outside the library is not his business anymore! )
7/1 / rokkun, sighs about the jacket.
anyway, komaeda's sitting in the library in the back both out of sight and out of mind, in a place where he can hardly cause any havoc. it's unlike him, but after everything he's seen so far, and it being enough to blame himself — if he didn't exist, or if his luck didn't act that way, then things would be fine. the amount of bad luck he's accumulated should give him something good, but he can't even look forward to what that is, because someone will just get hurt soon after. he finds that if he just gives up, accept his place in the world like he should have... maybe certain people wouldn't have gotten hurt.
around him is various books: mystery, geography, and some others from him to choose from, and he's better than he once was. rather than just letting a book sit there and read him, he's managed to lean forward, grab one, and open it to a page to read the first paragraph before allowing his mind to wander. it's like this everyday now, his own attempt to ease his mind, block out what's happened before, and just stay out of the way. everything that happens outside the library is not his business anymore! )