There's no pain, but there's no joy either, there's no— you won't get to eat combini flan late at night after school anymore, or watch your partner's soccer games, or play the second installment of Silent Hill, or Final Fantasy IX, or Skies of Arcadia, or Spyro or—

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What I mean is, you have things you're looking forward to and that keep you going, don't you? You can't do any of that when you're gone. There's so much more to living than the pain.